PIKA CHAKULA BLOGGER CHANDNI SOLANKI TALKS LOSING BROTHER

Blogger Chandni Solanki popularly known for her platform Pika Chakula took to social media to remember her late brother Rajan who passed away 10 years ago.

In a lengthy post, Chandni recalled her last day with him, “The last couple of days has just been a challenge. Thoughts on how you live every day not knowing when it’s your last, along with a hospital stay with a sick child and multiple issues at school, it’s been mentally difficult.

10 years ago, on this day, how he woke up not knowing it would be his last. How I saw him go to bed and not know it would be the last time I would see him. It’s a grief you just cannot explain. And this thing called trauma that so many people think they understand, but truly no one understands the trauma you go through when your only sibling was taken away from you in an instant, in such a brutal way.”

The mother of two went on to say every time she sees a skinny person it reminds her of him. “It’s such a strange thing- trauma- it comes in waves.. one moment you are fine and the next you are not. Because you saw someone skinny and it reminded you of him, you caught a scent, you heard a voice similar to his, you saw your kids playing together and it reminded you of your childhood, you catch them staring at something and smiling and you hope it’s him, you meet someone who knew him, you stare at the sky and hope he is out there watching you, and things in life just progress and you know deep down in your heart he is sitting there opening doors for you.”

She added, “The only peace I have is knowing that my kids have their very own guardian angel. We miss you terribly Rajan. I wish that day turned out differently. 10 years ago today, our lives changed forever.”