JESUS GIRL OPENS UP ABOUT HER NEAR DEATH EXPERIENCE AFTER RELAPSE EARLY THIS YEAR

Content creator Dora Obwaka also known as Jesus Girl has opened up on her relapse which happened early this year after three years of being sober. The content creator says she was doing well during her sobriety until it got to November 2020 when she started drinking again. 

“Since 2018, I was sober that was the longest time I have ever been sober since I was 17, November 2020, I felt like I can have one drink and I started to do that, I had a drink, then I stayed sober for two months and in January 2021, I had one drink and stopped two months,” she said. 

All this time, Jesus Girl said she justified her move to go back to drinking until it got out of hand and totally messed up. “In my mind I was thinking I’m healed and my issues have gone until it got to June this year, I was used to have one drink once after two months, but I decided to drink regularly. This time it was different, it turned into a three week bender, I was drinking every single day, I was smoking and I actually started chewing miraa.” 

Following the relapse, Jesus Girl’s life took a drastic turn forcing her to shut down her business, adding that she was affected by people taking videos and pictures of her while intoxicated. “I wasn’t running my business, I was not responding to clients and I was off social media because immediately I  started to mess, the shame and the guilt eat me alive and everyday I woke up with that feeling of, ‘I don’t want to face reality’ and on top of that videos and pictures of me were taken in different places,” she stated. 

The habit affected her to the point that she had to drink to get rid of the feeling of regret. “So every time I would wake up in that three day bender I would look for a drink in order to drive out that feeling of regret, at this point I had made some money and I didn’t have to call people and ask for money but I was reckless,” she said. 

After some time, Jesus Girl was approached by her family and advised to go to a secluded place and redeem herself. “It was not easy to admit that I had messed up again to people who are looking up to me on a day-to-day basis, I used to get inspirational messages on social media and I had pressure of keeping up which was impossible. I checked into the rehab on June 7 for one month, but a week before I came out I had decided I was not going to change, I was still going to drink, smoke and chew miraa. I didn’t want to be Jesus Girl anymore.”

On July 7 after checking out of rehab, she continued drinking heavily for five days, “I didn’t realise my body was wasting away because I was not eating. Subconsciously I wanted to die, I was not talking to my family but on day five my body started shutting down, I could feel I was dying and my heartbeat was irregular, my blood pressure was high. I was in pain I have never experienced before. I was rushed to Aga Khan Hospital and they flashed out my system, they told me I was almost dying. That night I cried and woke up the next day feeling bad, but I heard a small voice telling me I am loved, I accepted I am powerless and now in an AA program.”