MUSICIAN L JAY MAASAI PENS AN OPEN LETTER TO EX-GIRLFRIEND ASKING FOR FORGIVENESS

Celebrated musician L Jay Maasai wrote an emotional letter to his ex-girlfriend titled ‘Letter to the love of my life’. In the letter, L Jay acknowledged his mistakes and talked about going through depression and anxiety.

“Dear Love of my life, It has been soo long since we spoke and not because you are out of reach to me. I know and remember you told me that you will always be available to me whenever and for whatever no matter the situation, you promised to always listen, to always be by my side through thick and thin and that I should never hesitate to reach out to you more sore the biggest promise that you will always love me regardless. Therefore I have chosen to write to you, the love of my life.

I believe you are already aware of the fact that I have suffered tremendously, including serious depression, anxiety, frustration and stress to the extent I have been uncertain of life itself, to the extent of thinking about suicide. To say the least, I’ve felt lost in space. Confusion has come around me one too many times, often I wondered where you were to help me get a hold of myself as you always have, but I remembered you telling me that you will be there everywhere I go even up to the end of the world.”

He also said he misses his ex and blamed his friends for advising him to leave her,  “I would like to express how much I have missed you, your everyday presence in my life. In everything I did, I always felt your presence even if I did not see you physically, I always knew and felt as if you were right there beside me, encouraging me even when I felt I couldn’t achieve anything, you gave me words of hope that strengthened me to keep pushing and persisting. Don’t get tired, I have your back, you said.

I know I slipped plenty of times in our relationship, I am not perfect and probably will never be, but you forgave me each time, what kind of love was this? Honestly, love I have never seen and one I know I will never see in this world or is it what they call unconditional love? There is soo much I can say but very few words can express how I feel. I cannot end this letter without telling you how much I have suffered without your presence in my life.

I remember when you touched me for the first time, my entire being (body, mind, soul and heart) was inoculated by something I cannot explain. Remember those friends of mine? I will not mention the names, not to blame them but they lied to me too many times, I can’t believe I fell for it. Well, I guess no one wanted to see us together, I totally do not blame anyone. I guess I was foolish but I am much sharper now.

Let me end by saying that I will always be yours in whatever I do, whoever I meet, I will trust you only because there is none like you. I know your heart and believe you’ve forgiven me already. You will always be my number one. No matter where I go, what I do or what they say. Love L-Jay Maasai (El Shapa).”