‘I DIDN’T FALL IN LOVE WITH MY BABY RIGHT AWAY’ SHARES ANITA NDERU

Radio host Anita Nderu has opened up on her motherhood struggles. In a lengthy post on her social media, the mother of one revealed she didn’t fall in love with her baby right away.

“Say hello to our future taxpayer. Peanut is almost 5 months old now! Can you believe it? This time last year we had just found out we were pregnant with her and were going through the don’t tell anyone phase incase it doesn’t work out. Our Gyna was against the secrecy because she felt if it didn’t work out we would need the emotional support and how can you be supported when no one knows what you are going through.

She added, “Our families knew so we told our entire inner circle then life went on as usual until we heard her heart beat for the first time. It felt so real then! Baby heartbeats sound so fast! I listened to it often almost as a reminder that Peanut was real because I wasn’t showing. Fast forward to when we were in San Fran and I wake up one morning look down and I could no longer see my vagina. I had a bump! I was soooooo excited! None of the pregnancy ills no matter how bad they got took away from how much I enjoyed being pregnant.

I thought I never wanted it to end until we met Peanut whom we named Kaya Gacheri Catalina Raftery. I’ll be honest I didn’t experience the love at first sight everyone speaks of, mine was more like shock and fear and the will to learn. I thought something was wrong with me cause I didn’t experience that overwhelming love spoken of immediately. “

Anita says the love came two weeks later, “It came though about 2 weeks later when I was looking at her in her bassinet and I felt like my heart would explode with love. It’s been such a fun couple of months, everyday class is in session with Nippie Suckle. She smiles so much, her farts smell horrible but I love them, they hit you in waves like perfume, I love breastfeeding her even though my milk is no longer there.

I love falling asleep with her in my arms, she’s asleep next to me right now and I’m excited for her to wake up so we can hang out because she is awake more now and loves to do stuff to keep busy. She is making suckling noises as she sleeps, that makes me smile. Also she has outgrown her bassinet already and she rotates in her sleep so you find her limbs hanging out like a jail bird. This should probably have been a vlog story, I didn’t intend to even write this long a caption but I just thought I’d share.”