AKOTHEE OPENS UP ABOUT HER MENTAL HEALTH STRUGGLES

Controversial musician Akothee has opened up on her mental health struggles.

The mother of five said she was struggling to accept fame and interacting with her fans, “I was battling a monster in my head. Something was messing up with my brain, I was struggling inside a body fighting to live and a mind ready to switch off. I was overwhelmed with outbursts and uncontrolled emotions. I was struggling with being me without offending anyone, I was struggling to accept what fame throws at me. I was accepting that at some point I will have to let quite a lot go.

I was struggling with letting some people out of my life without hurting them and loving them from afar, oooh yes I was struggling with accepting that most of the time I will have to parent virtually and all the huge mansions left for me, the dogs and the birds. I was struggling with not feeling bad when I meet fans who are excited to see me and I was not in the mood of seeing anyone excited, at some point it felt like nagging, phone calls were irritable and I saw most of the people coming for me and not for me. Ohh yes, I was struggling for my space.”

Akothee recalls she would wake up at night feeling numb on one side of her body, “I almost lost it, I felt suffocated a lot. At some point I could not breath at night just from the blues, I would ask my partner to open the windows. From one night to the other, I woke up with my left side numb, the numbness spread from my neck to my leg. I woke up with one side completely feeling dead. I panicked and from one day to the next, I lost energy on my left arm not being able to lift anything. I developed a pinched nerve and I was due for surgery. I equally developed a lot of pain in my left ear. “

She was put on antidepressant but her condition became worse, “After several hospital visits, I moved out of my mansions and went to put up with my sister in-law. She has 3 kids and I could only get some sleep when I heard children’s voices. When any of my friends called me, I would just start crying for no reason. I felt alone in the world full of human beings, I lost energy and was completely exhausted and sucked up. I was put onto antidepressants which made me even worse, The emotions were doubled and crazy panic attacks. From one day to the next I needed stronger sleeping tablets. One day I asked a doctor to just Inject me with a strooooooooong sleeping medicine so I can sleeeeep.”