‘I WANTED TO KILL MYSELF’ CHEBET RONO EXPLAINS WHY SHE QUIT HER RADIO JOB

Popular social media influencer Chebet Rono says anxiety and suicidal thoughts made her quit her radio job.

Sharing her story for the first time she said, “I left Brook House to go to radio and I was so excited, it was my first job and things were so great and everything was happening so fast, everyone knew me and I didn’t mentally prepare myself. I felt I was really unhappy, I didn’t wanna do it at that time of my life. It reached a point I felt I wasn’t giving it my all, it was overwhelming for me.

I started to get anxiety a lot, I didn’t know I was known, a lot people would stop me on the road and that began to give me anxiety, people would say hi and I literally panicked. I used to drink so much so that I could be comfortable around people, it was so bad and I began to feel external pressure and I lost a lot of my real friends.”

Rono lost friends and had no one to help her, “They got tired of being there for me, that hit me so hard. When I quit my radio job, I wanted to focus on Rono but that was so hard because a lot people were leaving me, I didn’t have friends.

Everyone wanted to be my friends and be associated with me and use me. A lot of people who acted like they cared were not there. Mistakes I did became a big issue, I felt I was owned by people. I broke down and I lost myself, that was the worst feeling in my entire life. I did not know myself.

I would cry every day; I remember I use to think ‘if kill myself no one would care’ maybe I would stop annoying many people. Every time I did something or said something it was a problem. At the end of the day I realized I’m really not doing this for people. I decided to forgive myself.”